Glad to Be of Service

Life is short. And as a mortal, I want to do a lot of things. This is not necessarily bad, but neither am I saying that it is good.

However, the plethora of things that I want to do is as varied as my unsorted emotions, hopes and aspiration. Every time I make an effort to think, I end up with a lot of drastic ideas skirting through and fro my confused brain.

For instance, when I wake up each morning, the only sure thing that I would is to make my cup of coffee for the day. After that, I would sit in front of my table, power up my laptop, play some songs for awhile while sipping my coffee and I would end up working on a project that first catches my attention.

I may or may not finish it but usually, I would just wallow around, think on and off, wander around ideas and projects, discard and open documents, obsessed myself with novels I have not read and before I knew it, it's already five in the morning and oh gosh, I have not prepared for my sessions for the day.

Then, I would turn off my laptop, start jotting down possible topics to discuss, search for materials, handouts and other references I may need...or I would end up turning on the laptop again, getting distracted over the ungainly sight of the wallpaper and then, while changing the desktop background, I would realize that I was supposed to print out the budgeted modules I have been working on...

After that, there would be that 15-minute race to get ready for work. Around 7:30, I would be ready or unready and on my way to the designated center for the day carrying a rather big bag of assorted materials, modules and unfinished notes and sometimes, even my laptop.

Like right now, I am supposed to attend an 8:00 AM session with my learners but here I am, at 7:08, working on this little composition for a blog I intend to post later... And at the same time, I am listening to DYVS and getting all distracted since I have not read my Bible in almost four weeks now.

Again, at the same time, I am also thinking that I need to study Karl Marx philosophy, read The Compassionate Teacher that is lying on the desk just beside me, and go through the stack of classic novels I have purchased recently but did not have time to read since I was too busy with nothing to bother with it. And then again, I am also thinking if an 18-page introduction to a source book Nanay and I are working on would be okay - the source book is but a compilation of all the notes she had gathered and used in her TLE 1 class...I am encoding them and adding more info from online sources...It's not a happy task for someone as hyper intellectual as I am (hehe), but it will have its reward, in Midway (yey).

Anyway, it is 7:12 AM and I really must start jotting down notes for todays sessions. Thank God for ready made PBEBI (Providing Basic Education to BJMP-PCDJ Inmates) Session Guides, I have my lecture notes for the session.... Tsk, now I am off to thinking about what new lessons to prepare for our PBEBI sessions and what topics to include. I also need to buy a class record (one was not available at DAFA Goods yesterday) and start encoding data of the learners profile as well as filing all their outputs together.

May utok is one big gual just right now. But it is fun, making oneself worthwhile. With all these, when will I ever have the time to write my IIS novels?

But then again, to quote Mae Sheilou Conserva, I am doing all this because it makes me feel "better". She's right. I did not realize it until she pointed it out to me...