An Odd Depression

I wonder why I am feeling so down this afternoon. It is a Saturday and I just had a nice day at Grad School. Aside from that, I was able to eat a hefty meal when I got home.

However, I am wondering why I feel so down and so sad and so unhappy. Is it because our helper for a month has just left? Even if I did not really like her, Cynthia has become a fixture whenever I get home from school.

Her chatter, her unusually chummy ways, her innocent enquiries that sometimes ticked me off were a part of her very nature.

I must admit I did not treat Cynthia well when she was here. I either ignored her or I just refused to acknowledge her presence. I was not openly hostile with her, I guess, I just took her presence for granted.

When I arrived earlier and I saw her at the front of the house getting ready to leave, I felt kinda sad. Like, I should have treated her well. I felt sorry for her too since I know what kind of life she has in the barangay where she came from.

But I still feel sad now and I do not like the feeling. I was not like this earlier. I was not chirpy or happy but I was just tired. Now, I was able to sleep off most of the tiredness on the bus ride home but I still feel sad.

What is this… I wonder