A Most Recent Entry from My Diary

An Entry from my Diary

I am listening to an odd rendition in violin of the timeless Love story. It feels odd. Hair-raising and really ugnhhh…. Leaves you feeling that way, disturbing, sad, nostalgic and basta, I cannot explain.

Anyway, I am deep into getting to know Christ of late. I heard a lecture on super wants. The pastor of the Day by Day program in DYBS has specifically mentioned that our Super wants control us, our actions , and our thoughts… they are our very motivation.

He also said that human wants are classified into three:

1. Pleasure or Lust of the flesh

2. Greed or Lust of the Eyes

3. Pride or Pride of Self

Among the three, I guess my super wants revolved around Pride. I did things to please other people so that they will come to like me and see me in a favorable way.

Another category of which I am a patron is Pleasure. I bought things to make me feel happy and at ease. I refused responsibilities which I could have done well because I wanted to take things easy. I am also resentful of my job because it gives me a hard time and makes me suffer a lot.

What you live for should be worth dying for because if it is not worth dying for, then it is not worth living for.

What does this mean?

If you cannot die for what it is that you have been doing continually, then, it is not very important. You are only motivated by an earthly or worldly super want which is totally not what living is all about.

Why? Because it takes your focus away from godly things, creates a distance between you and the Lord and thus, makes you feel unhappy and always hungry for more.

An example of this scenario is a store keeper who closes and opens his store everyday of his life for the sake of earning a living. If, one day, the store owner was told that he will be killed if he opens up his store, would he still do it? If the answer is no, then, his super want is of a worldly nature.

Contrast this with a heavenly or godly super want.

The following are examples mentioned

To honor, please and glorify God.
If what you do is motivated singly by these thoughts, then it shows that you have a heavenly super want. Whatever your job is, if your sole goal is to please God, that you will do everything for the greater glory of his name, then, you are being motivated by a heavenly super want.

To be like Christ
This is another example. If you do something to be like Christ, then your motivation is very strong. Aside from that, you also know you will do no wrong.

To desire salvation especially for others
When you want others to be saved just as you are saved, then, you will do you best to bring the word of God to them even if you have to walk miles, hike mountains, cross streams and swim rivers. You will do all that for Him who did everything for you.

An example of a man who was motivated by heavenly super want is the man who died on the cross and suffered all degrees of embarrassment, hardships and pain. Who went through a series of betrayals from friends and followers alike, who was ridiculed in front of a crowd who almost worshipped Him once and dies for the sins He never committed… He did it to please His father who asked it of Him. To suffer the worst fate man ever has to suffer to atone for the sins that men has committed, is committing and will commit.

He died for his super wants which are to please, glorify and honor God and to save others.

I decided to employ the second one because I wanted to be like Him. To do that, the Pastor said that the first step is to get to know Him, to be acquainted with Him. Because, as with lovers, it is only when you truly know a person that you learn to like and later on love Him. Then, you would start wanting to be like Him.