Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Mild MAdness

This is a live one.

I am actuallywriting in a totally stream of consciousness (or is it unconsciousness) manner.

We had our debate last Monday. It was the first open to the public debate of the club and it was a totally harrowing experience. I nearly lost my cool.

Seeing someone else loose her cool threw me off my boiling tantrum. I had not counted on seeing a more childish behavior than my own so when I saw someone I expected to take control of the situation lost her own cool, I stopped, stared and told myself to relax.

I saw what an uncontrolled temper can do to an already strenous situation. I saw the utter dejection on the D'babies faces. Its as if cold water was thrown all over me.

I told myself to keep my call. I humbled myself that day and I tried to act maturely and responsibly.

The results may not be wha I wanted it to be. But at least, I am not blaming any one else for whatever failure there was.

No. God allowed it all to happen. I did nothing. Just played my part.

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